This is the first time that I'm broke and the need to travel around Singapore with an Ez-link card that is going to low in value anytime from now is well.. vastly huge. =(

I need a sugar daddy...or some emergency cash right now.. so that I won't even have the trouble to pay. Why can't I just use the current savings account to pay my handphone bills yesterday?

Such..... *sighs*....

For the whole entire week next week, I would've to try walking from my working place back home. Thank goodness, it's near to my house area. Otherwise, this would be the first time seeing none in my account till my next batch of salary arrives. Darn! =(

2 and 1/2 hours worth of medical checkup at Raffles Medical Clinic...

This is how freaking long it is. And it's not like those serious medical case that kind... it's just a normal medical checkup with a chest X-ray taken... and I have to rot inside the medical clinic from 11.30am to 2pm. Luckily got my dearie Stef to keep me accompany with her quirky wits and dry sarcasms. I am 100% sure that we have make a rackus in the supposedly-peaceful-surroundings-clinic with our stupid jokes, loud voice and gregarious laughters.

Thank goodness, there's no need to draw any blood from me. Stupid dearie Stef had to scare me on that. I had a fear on that!! *whimpers...*

Waiting for a doctor is the worse ever to come. If there's no fixed choice over the branch of Raffles Medical Clinic, I would've gone to somewhere else instead of the OUB Plaza. It's very long and the sequences jumped widely!!! Imagine my number if 8035... it could jump to at least 8038!!!

The attending doctor nearly does a Rap over the medical aliments on the paper. Of course not; I don't even have such problems in the first place. At one point of medical  'interrogation', I was nearly referred to a gynaecologist because she thought that I really had menstural cycle disorder since my last one is in Feburary. She really thought that I may have a cyst somewhere and wondered why I don't go to see a gyane since it's already 4 months but I just told her the same, "It will come regularly after a long-period of no-show... It happens to me last year whereby I don't have it for 6 months. And it's always due to stress whereby I will have a period of no-show..." 

"Yeah, of course.. Stress.. yes, I know that. But you know, this kind of thing is irregular..........." she quipped on and I just smiled and finished her sentence, "....unpredictable, yes I know. But this is just..........Recently, it happens. It will come regularly, I know it will just come." And I gave her a big cheshire cat grin. And she proceeded on to ask questions like blood clots during menses (noooo.. I don't have that....It's perfectly normal... -.-!), heavy flow...yada, yada, yada....

So for the entire medical examination, it's like... "No. No. Nope. Nope. 1-2 days. Nope. Nope...." in a very fast-paced manner. Probably I am just too tired from an hour long wait...............

After that, it's KFC time and home sweet home. Wah, I seriously couldn't wait... it's 1 week more!!! And by the time I knew it, I will be off to work.

Mr. Red Crimson, you may come out now. I have finish my medical examination and all... so you can come out from my body like... now. And to give those medical examiners a proper answer, so as to prove that I really don't have any menstrual cycle disorder. HAHA.!! :)

Still waiting for my posting memo for the first day at work............The wait can just simply kill me......

Tata for now!!

I was in the HR office yesterday morning (considering that it was already 12.27am by the time I am typing in here..), attending my appointment formalities briefing and signing off quite a number of forms which obviously, some are not in any importance to me. Of course, seeing my appointment letter is really, such a surreal to me. Like everything just happened yesterday.

I have to watch my diet and the intake of vices from now onwards. Medical examination will be a thorough job and I don't want anything to happen for no reason. Just thinking how am I going to spare the whole full day (well.. at least, half...) going down to the clinic at Raffles Place to get the job done. Da Jie said that I need to get down in the morning as upcoming SMU students are going to that clinic as well, and it's going to be very pack..... *sighs*... I got 19th June as the deadline............................*pondering*.....................................

Well, I cross my fingers and hope that everything will be a smooth-sailing afterwards. I got to pray hard for a smooth-sailing ride every morning until I got my first posting memo.

Met the girls up for lunch, girls' chat over coffee at Starbucks, and window shopping (mainly for myself) at Vivocity (twice in a row this week). After that, it's home-bound for my usual family dinner.

Anyway, come 22nd June, I don't even know whether I have the energy to blog my "by-so-far-interesting-lifestyle-that-I-am-leading" in this Livejournal. I have this serious consideration to just stop my internet activities and go MIA for a period of time till everything settles down. Besides, I can't even write about my current work; I have just signed a very important document leading me to go into secrecy for... I don't know... maybe...a lifetime?

Lots of things went through my mind......but at the end of the day, it just... went blank. I would rather, not to think about anything except drawing up my future plans 5 years later down the road. Out of all these plans that I am making, I am keeping one very important plan up in my mind. And I need to meet that eventual goal. It has something to do...with me alone. With nobody else involved.. so please don't assume anything, if you are just about to. :) 

 I need to sleep. Teaching tomorrow morning and I am still feeling like a piggy after eating a big bowl of red bean soup with barley and peanuts, and butter crossiant... So much of watching my diet. :(
 

Dictionary Definitions of....

"Verification"
Evidence that establishes or confirms the accuracy or truth of something: We could find no verification for his fantastic claims. - Hahahaha... If that going to happen on the 5th June's appointment, I am so dead and I am totally in for a RIDE.

"Addendum"
Document or information attached or added to clarify, modify, information in the original document or written work. - Heh lah, please...


Yes, I am bored and yet, I am a little worried too. I think I better go and practice my piano to allay all worries. Perhaps, giving them a call would clarify things as well? =X 



 

Yes, it is... and I am loving Mondays.

Maybe partly because every Monday, I never failed to have a program on my own after my piano lesson ends? But this is just going to last for a month. Starting from 22nd June onwards, I am going to work. And I will never get to enjoy Mondays that I always used to.

=''''(

Oh well, I seriously have to throw myself into the working place. It is about time that I should think of myself and the family lah.

Anyway, I have watched 'The Young Victoria', a movie produced by former Duchess of York Sarah Ferguson and set in United Kingdom. I have heard of that movie quite sometime back and always wanted to catch it. Now it is running only in certain cinemas so seizing the opportunity, I decided to make my way down to Orchard Road's Lido Theatres where they have movie timing that I like. Hahaha... 

Somehow or rather, I would like to think that most of the British flims seems to focus a lot on their monarch's ancenstry's history. The last that I watched is about Anne Boleyn and this time round, I watched 'The Young Victoria'... same place, same timing as well. Oh wells..

'The Young Victoria' is a nice movie, with a plot that holds quite a number of truths about Queen Victoria, the only monarch in United Kingdom to have the longest reign ever. It doesn't really show how much she has done for her beloved country during her reign but rather, it shows much of her intimate and personal life as a daugther to her over-protective mother and later, wife to Prince Albert of Saxe-Coburg and Gotha, which is, in my retrospective, very refreshing.

That, also comes with politics too, which is... quite revolting in a way. I didn't know that the House of Saxe-Coburg and Golta wants to set Prince Albert up with Queen Victoria, just because her mother is from the House. Does that stated in the history books or her autobiographical books? Hmm, it seems that I need to read deeply into such books.... and recall my memory over that.

People who have read the autobiography of Queen Victoria will also know that the couple is a very loving couple and will always do things together, including having Prince Albert as her advisor to the matters of her country. The movie tries to do so, which is in my perspective, is a rather good one. It doesn't distort any truths about the couple and there are quite a number of scenes (especially the very last ones), they never fail to bring a tear on my eyes because they are just too touching to be true.

I am just a sucker for such scenes. =P

Even though she's a Queen to all in United Kingdom and Empress of India, the movie does also state clearly that she knows her roles between being a Queen and being a wife to Prince Albert. On the thone, it's business. In the household, she fulfils the role as a wife, doing things that a normal wife should always do for her husband. Even though there are some disagreements about how she should run the country, at the end of the day, like all couples do, they make up only an adversity happen to the both of them.

I like the part about having the both of them reign together.

And talking about the actors and actresses, Emily Blunt had done a captivating and revolting performance over her lead role, required of her. The other actor, whom I forgot his name, does a rather good portrayal on his role as Prince Albert. The costumes looked great too, with rich silks and satins gracing the grounds of the Palaces (Kensington and Buckingham) and Crown Jewels sparkling around her. I love the tiara that Queen Victoria always wore and I believe, that's closest portrayal of her tiara.

However, the movie's soundtrack seems to only centered only a few waltz pieces, for which I haven't quite capture what waltzes are being played throughout the movie. Rather, I would think, it's quite limited... but oh wells, it's a movie and the movie needs a theme. And the movie sources say that Victoria loves waltzes... so I guess, waltzes are the main theme of the movie.

Plus, the ending looks weird as well... =X

Go watch it, if you have the time before the movie runs out of its time. It's a good movie that will never burn a hole in your pocket. I think I will go and acquire the DVD once it's out.

Don't I just love History? Haha.. =)

Oh, and on the other note... My piano teacher has second thoughts of me playing Prokofiev (just as I expected because it seems that music teachers can never make up their minds over what pieces that a student should play...and she was staring at the syllabus book while I was playing Brahms) for my diploma. She suggested Debussy and I told her that I would love to play a Debussy piece because it's one of my most favourite 20th Century composers. Just as much as I admired Prokofiev's works, but playing a Debussy is what makes me gets all dreamy about. HAHA!

Okay, I am a sucker for Debussy's works.

So yay! A Debussy work is now on its way up to my piano's stand, how good is that? =D It also shows that I need.... to... make... my... way... down... to... the....

Esplanade.

And armed with my Trinity-Guildhall music diploma syllabus, of course. I hope I can find a piece that I love from Debussy! Heh.

 

Ahh, yes... Telcom services, especially Singtel really knows to eat the consumers hearts (and their bills as well) out, yeah?

Last night, I've read a 2-day old article from The Sunday Times regarding about mobile smartphones and how such phones can incurred heavy bills, if gone unnoticed or when one is not even subscribed to the available broadband plan. It came very timely when I just upgraded my old, un-trusty Nokia to a Samsung PDA smartphone 10 days ago and as I was reading through the article, my eyes nearly popped out of fear and my adrenaline pumped fast in an extremely increasing rate.

For I just thought that I am one of those people described in the newspaper's article, who do not even know that their smartphones' data sessions are still in the running, even if you're not even fully utilizing in any ways possible. And to my horror, yes... My smartphone's data session are in the running... Even when I didn't even use the internet or the pushmail, at all.

Just now, in the bid to stop my data sessions, I went on a frantic search on how can I switch off my 3G wireless with an inclusion of checking out the local data usage as well. I have managed and checked. 17.2MB is the total local data usage that I've used... just way too much because I know I rarely even use the internet, unless really very neccessary and urgent.

So now, I'm fairly worried. I have already cut down the amount of phone usage and my recent phone bill had gone down to my ideal bill, though I still need to cut down even more (going to earn my own stable picket doesn't mean giving myself any liberty on my own to splurge, ya know...). With the accidental non-knowledge over the usage of data sessions, I don't dare to think about my next phone bill that is coming up.

I've also just realized that the major telcom services in here really knows how to monopolize the mobile smartphones market. There are so many different types of mobile smartphones selling in 3 major telcom services in here: M1, Starhub and of course, the major monopolist of telecommunication services: Singtel and taking the advantage of the current Y-generation who are busy, so into tech-savy products and many features that a mobile smartphone can provide, there is no wonder that these 3 telecom services would draw up plans that would supposedly help miminze the person's spending power over just a mobile phone and his data usages.

However, when you come to think about it, these plans will help boast a company's market porfolio and its annual net profit, or perhaps a possibility of being able to monopolize the whole entire mobile smartphones market. With younger generation like us thinking that a mobile smartphone will make you look 'oh-wow-so-cool' attitude and high-powered Type A personalities who are always on the go and had no time sitting down in front of the computer to check e-mails and had meetings in person, there is no wonder that there are such an increasing emergence over mobile smartphones and plans that telcom services can provide on top of the various brands of mobile smartphones that they offer.

Of course, there will be some people like me who doesn't even actually know that even if I don't use the internet and yet let the data sessions run in my smartphone, these telcom services will still charge accordance to per-pay-per usage and be recorded down for your eventual payment in your phone bill. And when things are getting a little out of control, then broadband usage plans will come to light and that's when you will see people signing up for the plan in order to accomodate the features that the smartphone/PDA can ever provide.

Otherwise, one will still continue to pay as per normal rate and be shocked at the eventual bill. So in order to prevent this from happening, that's when plans are being drawn up and sell them at promotional rates so that people whom I've described about, will come forward and change their current plans to the other plans. I reckoned anway, it will save them much billing trouble. And don't forget, a sudden 'heart attack'.

Welcome to the world of knowledge-oriented and high technology market where normal phones are being frowned upon and mobile smartphones and PDAs are the 'in-thing' of the telecommunication market whereby I foresee normal mobile plans will be slowly scrapped and broadband plans will an extreme measure of monopolization of the 3G market.

Save for some who couldn't afford a 3G plan or needless to say, even a mobile smartphone. Save for some who are really, totally clueless ( a clearcut sign of leading myself out to the society to see the world around me?) about everything regarding mobile smartphones. Till then, I seriously must learn how to be even 'smarter' than my newest, current mobile phone.

Think services. Think monopolization. Think market portfolio and net profits that a company can benefit from all these.

Now, excuse me please for I shall go and rest. Headache's accumulating.....

In the midst of examinations and endless of feverish revisions of my own, I have just received my outcome from the Ministry of Education with regards to my position as Allied Educator this afternoon and was escastic.

For MOE had found me suitable as an Allied Educator and had given me an offer of appointment as 'Allied Educator Grade 14 with a monthly gross salary of ..... (I shall not reveal in here).....' And yes, I was posted to Bedok View Secondary School and to assume duities on the 22nd June 2009... Not Bedok Town, which I'm hoping for because of my younger brother is attending that school there.

There's a moment of trepidation when 28th April arrived. For the past 5 days, I haven't been receiving any e-mail from MOE and as each day went by, I kept myself optimistic by thinking that since they are taking a long time to reply, which means mine will come a little later. But somehow or rather, I have felt a little uneasy because I could still remember what happened during the interivew. I already thought that I had blown my chances away because I have given an answer that to me, it's quite unsatisfactory.

I wonder what will happen to me today if I continue to stay in my own stance on not knowing how to teach Music in the secondary school level........

Well, luckily, I didn't. And I change my mind at the last minute.... Heh.

I have no idea what I am going to teach at BVSS though I had stated in my application form that my specialized knowledge is Music. I just sent a reply back to MOE, by telling them that I am keen to take up the offer of appointment. Many more things to take note prior to my assumption of duities on 22nd June, including attending Appointment Formalities session where a memo will be posted for me to take note of its instructions for my first day at work.

I am excited, happy and relieved...yet nervous. Never mind about my own position, but what lies beneath the school that I am posted to, I have absolutely no idea.....

Like what Yiling SMSed me....

Welcome to the Civil Service.

I've been quite busy for the past few days of this week, mainly doing my work and completing some music transcription work as well. I am extremely tired..... I can't wait for exams to be over.....

To pique my curiosity, I accompained my dearest Kenneth to watch this year's SYF Central Judging for Instrumental Ensembles (Strings - Secondary School/JC) on Wednesday. His secondary school's string orchestra (Nan Chiau High School) was involved on Wednesday morning and I was already there at Republic Polytechnic's TRCC at 9am whilst he got stuck at Sengkang for 18 minutes, on what he claimed, standing at the bus stop like an idiot. Poor thing. He eventually arrived at 10am...... =)

Saw many familiar faces during the morning session and had realized that the scene is so much like the SYF Central Judging for Chinese Orchestras; many distinguished and well-established string musicians appeared to give support and last minute advices to their students involved in the judging, just like how SCO musicians appeared in SCH during the judging moment. To me, it just brings in nostagic memories of my involvement for SYF Central Judging for 2 subsequent years.

Of course, both Kenneth and I met an UNDESIRABLE guy that appeared almost everywhere we go; we've seen him at least 5 FREAKING TIMES and my dearest Kenneth is wondering whether is it because of my appearance that cause him to appear as well. Heh, I've joked with him by saying that it's because he knew that I'm too charismatic and had a magnetic draw so that's why he would appear when I appear. He shakes his head while laughing it off. LOL!! 

I am quite impressed with the standards that most of the secondary schools' string orchestras that offered. Some SOs went auto-pilot (because I assumed that their conductors have overseas commitments, thus couldn't make it for SYF Central Judging), some very well-established SOs made a charismatic appearance and there are even some SOs that are apparently new to the scene but went to make impressive moments. Kenneth and I are speechless for words in some SOs but of course, his secondary school's SO is really not bad. Quite good, I should say.

Godwin joined us later for the afternoon session and we had lunch before rushing back to watch the String Orchestras for Junior Colleges. Kenneth's junior Anne was involved and I watched till their performance is over. Impressed by VJC and by the cello section, upon which the principal player is actually, a diploma holder. Kenneth had very good reviews about her and there is no doubt about that.

However, as usual, the judging results seem to be unpredictable. One major factor that contributes (and affects the judging) could be the acoustics of the concert hall. deathstix is right. The concert hall's acoustics are too tricky, and too... sparse in certain corners, including the centre area. Throughout the sessions, I've been sitting in three different corners of the Hall and had received three different types of sounds within the corners of the Hall. I couldn't agree more with deathstix's comments over the acoustics because during the sessions, I've been assessing the Hall area (Kenneth is wondering why I'm staring around the corners of the Hall) and concluded that if anyone, just anyone plays an etude, trust me, the sounds will travel and bounce at the shapes of the corners.  

Thus, it sounds messy for some SOs especially for people who are sitting at different areas of the Hall, and ended up, affected their final judging results. Oh wells... his secondary school got a Silver and I thought that given such strict judging, it's already quite good.

Weird thing is that, I don't receive such echoes when I played 2 piano solos for a VIP's private viewing 2 years ago, in the Hall... @.@.. Maybe it is totally different feeling when comes to Ensembles....... But I should've taken a sign from Godwin, whom he commented on his own when we had a private viewing of the Hall before it officially opens, that the Hall is too echoey... During that time, I can still remember the T'ang Quartet is trying out the Hall's acoustics.....

Whatever it is, it's already over. I am still impressed and always will. =)

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I had enough, seriously. No point for me to keep explaining the situation if there is no slightest hint of faith and trust from me. What's the point? The more I explained, the more that there is no room for any further discussions.

And now, during dinner, you came and tell me that you've learnt a lot about the piano from Uncle Robert? And that you've now hinted that you've finally believed what I tried to explain to you yesterday? Then what about the words of, "I don't understand and I don't wish or want to understand anything?" And don't forget, you tried cutting Mum and Marcus away from what they are TRYING to tell you all the time. By the time you do all these kind of things, it's already too late for me.

Damage has been done, al pronto. In fact, a long time ago since I finally understood the ways and facts of life. I always keep telling my friends that I always held you in high regards and that you're always my role model in many things. I've always mentioned about you in front of them but after what I've seen,  I was too deeply hurt down inside.

I didn't want to talk much to you because I just think that I had enough of the treatment that I always get from you since young. Whenever you're angry or your business didn't pick up, you always picked and flared your temper on me. And when I tried explaining, you always never want to listen to me. And you always think that I'm always up to something no good when at times, I came back home late but most of the times, you knew that I had rehearsals to attend.

Where's the trust? Where's the faith? I don't see that from you. *shrugs*. I guess, I am very used to being just me. Sometimes, I tried too hard to blend in together with you, to try to understand you and to try to bond together with you. Now, I'm too tired...In this family, I have nothing to look forward to except to come home, rest and stone in front of the computer or chatting with Marcus. I had tried my 100% best but with what I'm seeing right now, I guess, it's time for me to stop temporarily and to do things that I want and I need to do and complete on my own.

No matter what, I still hold family in my own heart... nothing beats to have a family and to be fair, this is a shelter that I've grew up in and I'm still grateful for the upbringing that I've received all the while. But I swore that if I ever get married, my family will never be like my current family and my future husband will never be like you. And I will never be like my Mum either, though many of the principles, I should ought to learn from her as well, including self-sacrificing.

Because I don't want my kids to suffer in this kind of environment. I had suffered enough and so does Marcus too..... I don't want to see a cycle being repeated on my poor kids....
 

Hmmm..

Mum is already on her way to Melaka (even as I'm typing this, I'm imagining the bus is halfway on the North-South Highway in Malaysia) to attend the 1st ASEAN Nurses Seminar. Sounds very atas, yeah? But I think she's there to get herself updated on the latest move that is pertaining to her job and as well as being the first batch to get involved with the seminar.

Just as I am proud of my Mum's acheivement (out of all nurses in TTSH, she is the one of the 4 to represent TTSH), I am also awaiting for The Body Shop items to be brought back on my hands. I have drew out a list of items that I want to get from TBS in Melaka (their items are surprisingly... quite cheap after conversion. I got a skirt from there once and it went 'WOAH' on the both of us...) and left it on my Mum's dressing table. Hopefully, she can get it for me... HEHE..

However, I still have to pay her back. So it doesn't make any difference.. -.-!

Oh yes, Daddy will be going over to Melaka to join my Mummy on Saturday. Or this is what I've heard from him. Hmmmm.. So the house is left only me, Marcus and our 'sister' (aka our family maid). If not, Saturday is the time to spend some time with Daddy.

If not... it's time to RUN AMOK!!

Yeah right.. I'm just simly too tired for that, thank you very much.. Probably me and Marcus would try to watch a midnight movie.. and that's only provided if neither parent calls back home to CHECK ON US. LOL!!